Bills Bills Bills and more BillS

I'm looking over my monthly budget and instantly getting flustered with my debt. Life is not supposed to be this way. It can't be! This has got to end, right here, right now. It's a new day, it has to be. Time never stops, things are always changing. I have to to change it, I HAVE TO! I mean it's gotten completely and utterly ridiculous. I live each month to get a paycheck, base my entire being around a paycheck. No sir not me, who would have ever thought? This is not the plan and I worship no idle Gods. I'm not waiting for anymore paychecks, this will end now. This system is so flawed. With that, it's time for me to be an individual. I don't have to take part in anything that is not beneficial or prosperous. To hell with this system of merry-go-round...

Merry-go-round spinning in a circle until the abdomen is ill
Round and round all joy is gone and there is no more thrill
The truth of the merry-go-round is that it will never stop
Jump off and stumble to a stance or fall down with a plop
Merry-go-round quickly rotating jump back on if you should
Or go over to the swings where life is more easily understood

Unfocused and in a Frenzy: Part II Many Opinions

The year started off with joyful feelings and all was great, until opinions came into play and shyte started to jump on my plate.
Now I'm staring out the window with a dreadful look on my face, holding some emotions that I just can't seem to place.
Can't set them down without picking them back up, and can't deal with them strategically, so they get bottled up.
Entangled in my system they make my belly ache, consumed with resenting feelings that I just can't take.
So what I conclude is a partial solitude which you might take as rude or an cold attitude.
Please don't get it misconstrued, love is love and that I will never elude, but my mind is mines and my ears are now glued.
I have no questions, which requests no answers...
I have no concerns, which requests no opinions...

01.01.10

It is a new day in a new year, which is only a continuation from yesterday and last year. I started my change a few weeks ago and I set some goals so that when this day came I would be in full swing with no stumbling out of the blocks. The life and times have been difficult, have been joyous and have been a great learning experience. Please stay tuned in to see what is happening next because this journey is full of new encounters. Please be entertained, educated and enlightened by my stories.
-Charlie