So Far, So Good

So far, so good, I have no complaints.
Everything in order and all chaos kept in restraints.
All is well, all have come and gone.
Peace has settled and the next destination is home.
Things are in order for the next day to begin.
I'm setting up to be a trail blazer and to set some new trends.
The first day was a good day and a model for the rest.
I'm pushing for new amazement and putting myself to the test.

Today was a good day. It helps to plan and even over plan. When you lack plans, you put yourself in a position to fall victim to nothingness or a state of confusion. Someone intelligent said, "A failure to plan is a plan to fail." Indeed, improvisation is given to the gifted, but in certain instances it just will not do. In being prepared there are set goals and direction, which give way to progress.
If there are no plans, is there any direction?
Are there any set goals to attain?
Where exactly is life leading?
Is life an improvisation, or something to just go with the flow and whatever happens just happens?
Do no plans suggest no control?
It's a double standard for me to be so prepared in one portion of my life and to lack preparation in other parts. My game face has turned to a solemn stare as I sit here trying to figure out my next move. I'm living two separate lives. The side that I'm held accountable by a group and employer is having the most gain because I refuse to let people down. Yet the side that keeps me grounded and at peace is suffering. I've put my peace on the back burner and its sitting there to get scorched. In all of my humility, I'll prepare any and everything, within reason, for the sake of others. When it comes to self, I've gotten into the habit of procrastination. It's hard to be a dreamer right now. The world is much bigger than I ever knew and it has become so intimidating. It was so much easier to be a dreamer when I lived in a smaller world and the tasks flowed like water because I had something to prove and share with the world. I wanted them to see my life, my pain, my leaps and bounds. And so I prepared, set goals and created progress. When the world was smaller, I made it go around. Now the world has grown beyond my slim horizons and I'm trying to do a double step to keep up with its rotation. I've made some plans, but not over planned and the outcome was a plan failed and no extensions to back up the first set. Now, I'm waiting and thinking about new plans. But still waiting...
Even so, today was a good day and I'll take that for what it is.